Monday, October 06, 2008

Father & Son.


It's much too late for me to be up. It's even too cold to comfortably enjoy the night air with how wet this one is. Seems autumn gave us a sidelong glance and made for the hills when we weren't looking. Who knows what the sun will do with all of this in the bright of morning, but I'm well prepared for bonfires and V-necked sweaters and s'mores ... bring on that whole gooey barrage of goodness. There is beauty in all of that.

Yesterday is a day etched in my mind, one I won't shake until I'm suffering from dementia, I think ... but October 5th was the 25th anniversary of my father passing on. In years past, I have written all kinds of poetry in his memory for the week preceding the date. And, this year, I figured I would have at least paid some sort of long tribute to him somehow, perhaps even here, but my Sunday was filled. It was all filled up with things I think he would have approved of, even.

That said, then, this will be appropriately short.

Let it just be said that, well, I'm not so melancholy this year. Others in my family line may very well be. I think I've left the sad feelings I've long associated with what happened far behind, though. So no apologies are needed. Tears needn't even be shed. I am simply happy to have known the good man he was and I think he'd be happy with the direction I'm headed with my own life. Can you ask more than that?

The couple zucchini brownies I'm downing at 2:30 in the morning? They are eaten in my dad's honor.

7 comments:

ram said...

May not be my place to say, but I think your old man was proud to be smiling right as he watched you down those brownies.

amberlynn said...

He would definately be proud of you; that's for sure. It wasn't until recently, when you posted a picture of him awhile back that I realized you grew up to be his twin! Love you!

Mel said...

I agree, Dad would be proud of the way your life is headed, and where it has been.

Nicole said...

I too don't feel the sadness, but I do look forward to hopefully being hugged by him again someday. I know Dad is happy with you, and your activities. I'm sure he is very interested in your life, and maybe even more so of recent times. We are so lucky to know and be loved by our very own "angel."

aisy said...

until you can share brownies with him on day...

i'm sure he is proud.

jess said...

if i blink it almost looks like the setting of your front entrance. he'd be proud. you're great.

Kilee said...

I bet Daddy would want you to get a little more sleep :). But I know he is pleased with the direction your life is going. I'm sure there is a good sense of peace to be able to say that.