Sunday, December 28, 2008

Snowy thoughts.

Tonight I'm not so in love with the magic of the season or the wonder of the snow.

It's a cold one and it has been for some time. This will continue for a good spell to come, too. So, this is a time to stay indoors, turn up heaters and pile on blankets. Seek warmth and make hot coco, yes. Watch movies and take long naps and wander around in thoughts, both while in the haze of sleep and in the awake moments (few that they be). Yes, this is the beginning of one final week of vacation for me, so I get to repeat all of this over and over again for a few more days. The make believe life will end eventually, but not yet.

I commented to more than one person not too many days ago that a snowfall immediately makes me feel romantic. It certainly does. Whether in the evening or in the day, watching a fast falling snowstorm makes my heart leap right out of my chest. I want to be close to someone when that happens. I want to kiss them on the mouth and complete the feeling I am having. Am I alone on this? Perhaps.

I guess that, now that the snow has fallen and it is really, really cold out, I'm left feeling sorta empty. There is a lot of sadness to match the bleak. There's a reminder that I live alone and have for years on end. Maybe I just need it to snow again, every day for the rest of this winter, to help wash all of that ilk away. And, even if I don't have someone near to help wear warm, I can at least have that feeling, that one that charges my heart.

I hope you're listening, Universe.

8 comments:

~The W.P.~ said...

You are most certainly not alone... the Universe just wanted you to know that.

Calluna Vulgaris said...

You are not alone. *Sigh*

k8 said...

you are not alone at all.

Ditzy said...

Oh, to breath in air so cold that it hurts and then to turn and kiss the mouth that is breathing and gasping beside you - no you are not alone in this thought, now I am wishoing for snow to fall here.........Ditzy X

Sarah Bellum said...

This post mirrors my life.

I can't decide if that's depressing, or happily makes me feel a little less alone in the world.

erita. said...

amen. definitely hearing you on this...

Sherpa said...

Yeah, I'm with you on this too.

fourthirtyam said...

rainstorms have this effect on me. you phrased it beautifully.