Tuesday, October 27, 2009

This is for the best.

The funny thing is, I never mind when the sadness stops by for a visit.

I’m not prone to wallowing in the emotion or anything and, given the choice (which usually doesn’t exist), I sidestep it for anything but the feelings it lays on me, but he’s an altogether familiar visitor. I know when he’s here and that he’s been here so many times before and that, even though he hasn’t been around for quite a long spell now, I remember how he’s prone to making me feel. I also know there’s a reason for it (and, often times, there tend to be several) and that I can go about sending him on his way once I discover and dismiss and/or solve it. Some say there’s no logic in the emotion but I don't believe that’s the case.

Besides, there are things you do (or don’t do) when you’re sad that you wouldn’t do otherwise. I do things like throwing out all my old, forgotten cucumbers and bad broccoli and stanky cottage cheese and such. I skip out on exercise. I don’t watch any movies because, when sadness is around, he certainly prefers my full, undivided attention. Oh! I tend to sleep a lot more than my usual amount, too, though it’s one of those light rests, the kind that come with a wide array of crazy dreams. Even music tends to mean more, sound better and make more sense.

You ever notice how nobody calls you back when you’re sad? That’s almost always the case.

It’s supposed to snow, maybe even tonight according to the paper. If that’s the case, I sorta hope this sadness sticks around. I'm no glutton for punishment, mind you, but it’d certainly be a waste to not be blue while snowflakes were falling from the sky. They tend to go together so well after all.


Mel said...

I was waiting and waiting for you to explain the source of your sadness. What is it? Can I help make you happy in any way, brother? Zucchini brownies or soft, warm gingersnap cookies perhaps? Might not chase it away completely, but it makes for a great band-aid.

Dainon. said...

Mmmmm, cookies. I'm OK, sis ... just had a bad day for a number of reasons. Today's been mo bettah. Thanks for checking in.